do you ever feel like someone just walked in, showed up, like who the fuck are you and got everything you've ever wanted, got everything you've been waiting for? and to make matters worse, they make it clear that they have what you don't.
that's how i feel. and it's not fair. maybe i'm being selfish, maybe i'm being childish. i don't know exactly. but, what i do know is i feel like that should have been me. that still should be me. but it's not, and it's frustrating.